As last time i have written in my blog that i have cure my depression without medicine.
As i was suffering from depression i knew my thaughts that they tell me lie about everything and the problem is not that the medicine is not working its working but it is taking me in a positive thaughts loop whcih is a lie of thaughts.
As i knew that my thaughts lie everytime. My Hormones Dopamine serotonin always imbalanced so i think that i am not normal and the lie of thaughts is just for me, because my mind is abnormal and everybodies mind is normal and everybody mind never lies and my mind lies. Therefore i take medicines daily to not to get fear from that fake and lie thaughts.
I take pills and my doctor said that after two month of medication that you will not be cure. And i again i got depressed therefore I take medicines daily.
As i grew up and in India internet become very cheap after 2016 july therefore I mostly search for depression and neuro disorders. and i got lots and lots of information on youtube and google about neuro disorders. I got information how to deal with it. But at last i can't deal with that lie of thaughts and negative feelings.
And I Failed against myself , against my own mind therefore i feel negative and always depressed.
But I never stop taking knowledge of medicines and hormones of brain. that has helped me a lot to cure in future.
I always thaught that why not everybody not understand me and i always feel incomplete in myself.
Why I am like this and why all people are like this. So i just quit on my mind and accepted that i have depression for whole life and i will not be cured.
I was get failed in my first year of college so i got more depressed. But Story doesn't ends here. I got Admission in St.Xavier's College Mumbai
in 2017 july. And i always feel good in that college. But my depression never left me there also. So i never stop learning about my own mind my own conciousness.
In 2018 April i read book "The Subtle art of not giving a fuck " written by Mark Manson. This book change my mind fully. Everything in that book is true and i feel that book is very real. But than also my mind is depressed and than also i take medicine. A book can never cure a mind.
So i have quit in my past that i will not get cured. But my mind never stops to think that why this happens to me only and why i am living this life, which does not have any meaning ,why i am depressed. GOD has cursed me or what for this.
My mind is always think that everything works because of money and human is nothing without money. Therefore I started taking knowledge of Money How money works and how money came in reality this Fake or Fiat currency. I study history of money and who controls the world economy and who is the main owner of money (Dollar). So i study everything about money and how this paper money come in reality because of Gold.
How all countries are in Debt. Every country in this Planet Eart is in debt. I take information from Dark web also how this system of world works and how much information has been hidden from us.
5% is of surface web which we use and 95% to 97% is dark web. So i understand reality more deeply.
It has helped me because it has open my mind about the world. How the world works. Now i came to people and i analyse that everybody mind is unstable and everybodies mind always tell lie to them, like my mind, and from that analysis i get to a result that I am Not Depressed and i have not any depression or ADHD its normal.
From that point in my mind came to peace. That I am normal and i dont have to take medicines. But than also my mind never stop to give me stress or negative feelings. So i learned that this mind is like this and i analyse myself that i have to gave it a direction to think.
So from December 2018 i started studying cosmology, Atoms and molecules, and i gave direction to mind about thinking of universe. and than my mind come to peace. And i stoped taking medcines from december 2018.
My mind have stress but not that type of stress in which i feel very low and i feel incomplete.
I came to a point that i have peace in my mind and i am complete in my peace of mind.
in reality i have analyse that everybody is just an actor full fake faces and fake behaviours. Nobody Dont know their own reality. And everybody wants that somebody else should understand but if you can't understand yourself than no one will understand you.
If you are not complete with yourself than nobody can complete you.
In Reality i have analyse that everybody is in depression and everybody wants to be complete.
"Our worst enemy cannot Harm us than our own unwise thaughts,
Nobody can help us than our own Compassionate thaughts"
-Gautam Buddha
As i was suffering from depression i knew my thaughts that they tell me lie about everything and the problem is not that the medicine is not working its working but it is taking me in a positive thaughts loop whcih is a lie of thaughts.
As i knew that my thaughts lie everytime. My Hormones Dopamine serotonin always imbalanced so i think that i am not normal and the lie of thaughts is just for me, because my mind is abnormal and everybodies mind is normal and everybody mind never lies and my mind lies. Therefore i take medicines daily to not to get fear from that fake and lie thaughts.
I take pills and my doctor said that after two month of medication that you will not be cure. And i again i got depressed therefore I take medicines daily.
As i grew up and in India internet become very cheap after 2016 july therefore I mostly search for depression and neuro disorders. and i got lots and lots of information on youtube and google about neuro disorders. I got information how to deal with it. But at last i can't deal with that lie of thaughts and negative feelings.
And I Failed against myself , against my own mind therefore i feel negative and always depressed.
But I never stop taking knowledge of medicines and hormones of brain. that has helped me a lot to cure in future.
I always thaught that why not everybody not understand me and i always feel incomplete in myself.
Why I am like this and why all people are like this. So i just quit on my mind and accepted that i have depression for whole life and i will not be cured.
I was get failed in my first year of college so i got more depressed. But Story doesn't ends here. I got Admission in St.Xavier's College Mumbai
in 2017 july. And i always feel good in that college. But my depression never left me there also. So i never stop learning about my own mind my own conciousness.
In 2018 April i read book "The Subtle art of not giving a fuck " written by Mark Manson. This book change my mind fully. Everything in that book is true and i feel that book is very real. But than also my mind is depressed and than also i take medicine. A book can never cure a mind.
So i have quit in my past that i will not get cured. But my mind never stops to think that why this happens to me only and why i am living this life, which does not have any meaning ,why i am depressed. GOD has cursed me or what for this.
My mind is always think that everything works because of money and human is nothing without money. Therefore I started taking knowledge of Money How money works and how money came in reality this Fake or Fiat currency. I study history of money and who controls the world economy and who is the main owner of money (Dollar). So i study everything about money and how this paper money come in reality because of Gold.
How all countries are in Debt. Every country in this Planet Eart is in debt. I take information from Dark web also how this system of world works and how much information has been hidden from us.
5% is of surface web which we use and 95% to 97% is dark web. So i understand reality more deeply.
It has helped me because it has open my mind about the world. How the world works. Now i came to people and i analyse that everybody mind is unstable and everybodies mind always tell lie to them, like my mind, and from that analysis i get to a result that I am Not Depressed and i have not any depression or ADHD its normal.
From that point in my mind came to peace. That I am normal and i dont have to take medicines. But than also my mind never stop to give me stress or negative feelings. So i learned that this mind is like this and i analyse myself that i have to gave it a direction to think.
So from December 2018 i started studying cosmology, Atoms and molecules, and i gave direction to mind about thinking of universe. and than my mind come to peace. And i stoped taking medcines from december 2018.
My mind have stress but not that type of stress in which i feel very low and i feel incomplete.
I came to a point that i have peace in my mind and i am complete in my peace of mind.
in reality i have analyse that everybody is just an actor full fake faces and fake behaviours. Nobody Dont know their own reality. And everybody wants that somebody else should understand but if you can't understand yourself than no one will understand you.
If you are not complete with yourself than nobody can complete you.
In Reality i have analyse that everybody is in depression and everybody wants to be complete.
"Our worst enemy cannot Harm us than our own unwise thaughts,
Nobody can help us than our own Compassionate thaughts"
-Gautam Buddha
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